one night i had a dream..i was holding his hand..i was touching his face...hugging his body...kissing his cheeks...saying i love you..it felt so real...i couldn't see his face so clearly..it was blurred..he was like washed out by the water...but still his presence i feel...he was with me till the bitter times of my life..through my experiences...through my whole life...i really love him that i didn't want that dream to end..then in that dream..he died..sickness has killed him..so hard for me to take...i know it was all a dream but at that time..i wanted to die with him...he died without even saying goodbye..farewell..goodnight..i love you..sweet dreams..take care..i'll miss you..before i go,remember that i love you...nothing like that...he died without i saying my thanks to him..without me saying my goodbyes..my sorrys..and my i love yous to him..i really missed him..i was so sad that i can't see his face because of all the tears in my eyes..i didn't get the chance to say sorry for all the mistakes..for all the wrong doings..for all the embarassments....it was so hard for me to take it...it was so painful to accept that in a young girls mind,at the age of 13 will still remember this tragic moment of her life....but my mistake..suddenly i was starting to feel the real world..i was finally awake..good thing i remembered that it was all a dream..but still in reality it's true..he is dead and its not a dream anymore...i miss him..i really miss him..i really really mis him...oh...i miss my father so much...the one who gave me life..i miss him so much..wish he could be here...i miss my father....i miss him so much...

“I love you, I really do!! “ Do you remember these words? These were the words that I told you before you went goodbye. It was the day before our anniversary when you last talked to me. You said you never want to see me again. But I didn’t stop seeing you. The other day, our anniversary, I still went to your place just to see your face. I went to your house and nobody was there. You were not their, nor your shadows. I went inside your room and do you know what I saw? I saw a picture of you and your new girl. She looked lovely and pretty. For me, she was the kind of girl that was easy to play around. She was like a used toy for you, I guess. Later that night, I sat beside the window in my room. The sky was very dark and the moon was starting to disappear. At that time, I remembered the night when we went to the park and we were lying on the ground. We were kissing each other just like a newly wed couple. I felt really happy remembering those times but at the same time, I felt sad. After years had past, I started forgetting you. You were just like the worst nightmare I had ever had. You were like a beast that keeps haunting my mind, my soul, and my body. You were so awful that whenever I think of you, I remember a big fat asshole. But of course, you know me. I’m the type of girl that can easily forget bad things. Now I found someone new. A better guy this time. He’s no one like you and he’s very different. He didn’t hurt me like you do. But one time, I saw you with your new girl. You were happy with each other. You were holding her hand so tightly as if you don’t want to lose her. I cried after I saw the both of you. I felt like I was never been a part of your life. You know why? Because never did you held my hand like that. You never held my hand that tight. You never cared for me as if you want to let me go that easily. I tried to stop myself from crying but I can’t. I slap myself so hard that I would stop crying but I really can’t. I just don’t know what got into me. I felt like I’m not myself anymore. And after all that crying stuffs, I have heard that you just moved in from the block. I a little bit felt happy but at the same time I also felt mad. I didn’t want to see you again. I was so mad at you for disposing me just like that. But after all that, do you know what I have realized? I realized that I still love you. That’s why I was still crying over you. That’s why I still can’t get over you. That’s why I still can’t forget your face and that’s why I still can’t resist to look at you. I still love you and I know I’ll forever do. I thought that was just a word that I heard from my inner self but it wasn’t. I was at first in shock to realize this by myself also. But I know myself and I know for sure that I really love you. So please love me too.

I would advise you to keep your overhead down; avoid a major drug habit; play everyday, and take it in front of other people. They need to hear it, and you need them to hear it. Music is a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosphy. Music is the electrical soil in which the spirit lives, thinks and invents." It occurred to me by intuition, and music was the driving force behind that intuition. My discovery was the result of musical perception.

-- couldn't remember where i got this from

Mahirap para sa akin
Na malamang may mahal kang iba
Pero di ko kayang akitin
Ang pag-ibig mo sinta

Alam kong mahal mo siya
Mas matimbang siya sa puso mo
Subalit paano na
Mga pangakong binitiwan mo

Kay bilis ding lumipas
Mga panahong nagdaan
Pag-ibig ko pa ri’y likas
At di mapapantayan

Sa haba ng pagsasamahan
Siya pa rin ang napili
Siya ang dinamayan
Sa lungkot at pighati

Ngunit bakit dumating
Sa puntong ganito
Lumayo na sa aking piling
Iniwan pa ang puso ko…

Some of you may face this milestone event with fear and anxiety; others with longing of what the future would bring; while some, with the same steadfastness- that this is just another door closing, while another opens.

Yet no matter how you feel inside; how you mean to face tomorrow, the dream that you have constantly kept close to your hearts should remain ablaze. For it is this same dream that will give you the strength and the hope to rise above the challenges. For these would be many challenges-some inspiring, others almost defeating.

So never lose sight of your dreams. Believe that you have in you, what it takes to make them come true. You have been prepared well for this moment, when you have to move on and begin a new phase in your life. Your fears, anxiety, and longing won’t stay long with you. But your dreams would.remember my friends, the best is yet to come.

It started on my first day in the world. I have many good friends but only one of them is really close to my heart. He taught me to sing, to laugh, and to enjoy life. He taught me things that I never knew. He made me feel complete in every special way. He made me laugh when I was lonely. He stood by my side when there was a storm. He kept all my secrets and I kept his also. He helped me when I was in need. He helped me value what my parents gave me when I was still a child-a locket… My parents gave me a locket with our picture. That locket was made of gold and during that time selling of golds were the fashion. We both treasured it. He had my trust and I had his trust. But one night, I saw him sneeking in my room and trying to get my locket. I stayed in bed pretending I was still sleeping. I was watching him and I couldn’t do anything because he is my friend. We were both poor then. So I really understand him getting my locket. He wanted to be rich just like the others. The other day when I woke up, I saw him sitting on the corner. He was crying and weeping. I asked him why and he said nothing. I didn’t force him to tell me what happened. We continued on our journey. While we were walking, he was not talking. Then, we finally saw ourselves in a different place, a different world for us to explore. We saw many children playing around, having fun. We saw mothers and fathers proud of their children. We remembered our parents when they were also proud of us. We continued walking. We were so hungry and we felt tired. My feet and his were bleeding, our shoes were already worn out. Our shirts were torned. So we stopped for a while. While we were resting, he tapped me on my back. He told me everything he did. He told me what got in his mind that he did such a thing. He told me his problems that he never told me before. He cried on my shoulder. He was kneeling and asking for forgiveness. So I told him that he was forgiven. We continued walking again and he felt relieved telling me all those things. We were close again. We both don’t have families anymore. So we know exactly how both of us feel. We were already talking to each other. We were getting too emotional to each other in telling stories. We were having so much fun as if we didn’t have any problems at all. And later on learned to understand each other. We were as honest as we can be. We were kind and gentle to each other. Until it came to a point when we were starting to like each other. We were already beginning to be shy when close to each other. He told me he likes me and I told him I like him too. He started courting me and during that time, I felt much happier. He asked me when I was going to answer him. I didn’t answer him back. And then, we worked to fulfill our dreams. We suceeded in everything we did. And would you believe?! This friend of mine is my boyfriend right now. Yes, he is now my boyfriend. My friend who betrayed me before is now my boyfriend. We are happy with each other now. All those trials are getting on a good path right now. . *fictional

I had a dream last night
A very suspicious one
But then I saw a very bright light
Now I know my dream was fun

In my dream, I saw paradise
I felt happier in my life
I came in there thrice
But hten I only saw a knife

The knife I saw was made of thunder
A crazy looking thunder
But surely, I was frightened
To touch it, I did not intend

In my way home, I saw a beggar
A very poor old beggar
I felt like crying when I saw him
But he’s not that poor like he seem

While I’m walking, I passed by a garden
There are lots of flowers and butterflies
I came inside a house and sat in the den
And then I saw lots of guys

Those guys were so terrific
The guy that you would really want
This wasn’t scientific
But of course it was a mistake, they were merchants

And then I saw a cliff
It was so amazing and fascinating
I jump for I wanted to die and by surprise I fell and weep
I was so happy.. but i forgot it was just a dream…