“I love you, I really do!! “ Do you remember these words? These were the words that I told you before you went goodbye. It was the day before our anniversary when you last talked to me. You said you never want to see me again. But I didn’t stop seeing you. The other day, our anniversary, I still went to your place just to see your face. I went to your house and nobody was there. You were not their, nor your shadows. I went inside your room and do you know what I saw? I saw a picture of you and your new girl. She looked lovely and pretty. For me, she was the kind of girl that was easy to play around. She was like a used toy for you, I guess. Later that night, I sat beside the window in my room. The sky was very dark and the moon was starting to disappear. At that time, I remembered the night when we went to the park and we were lying on the ground. We were kissing each other just like a newly wed couple. I felt really happy remembering those times but at the same time, I felt sad. After years had past, I started forgetting you. You were just like the worst nightmare I had ever had. You were like a beast that keeps haunting my mind, my soul, and my body. You were so awful that whenever I think of you, I remember a big fat asshole. But of course, you know me. I’m the type of girl that can easily forget bad things. Now I found someone new. A better guy this time. He’s no one like you and he’s very different. He didn’t hurt me like you do. But one time, I saw you with your new girl. You were happy with each other. You were holding her hand so tightly as if you don’t want to lose her. I cried after I saw the both of you. I felt like I was never been a part of your life. You know why? Because never did you held my hand like that. You never held my hand that tight. You never cared for me as if you want to let me go that easily. I tried to stop myself from crying but I can’t. I slap myself so hard that I would stop crying but I really can’t. I just don’t know what got into me. I felt like I’m not myself anymore. And after all that crying stuffs, I have heard that you just moved in from the block. I a little bit felt happy but at the same time I also felt mad. I didn’t want to see you again. I was so mad at you for disposing me just like that. But after all that, do you know what I have realized? I realized that I still love you. That’s why I was still crying over you. That’s why I still can’t get over you. That’s why I still can’t forget your face and that’s why I still can’t resist to look at you. I still love you and I know I’ll forever do. I thought that was just a word that I heard from my inner self but it wasn’t. I was at first in shock to realize this by myself also. But I know myself and I know for sure that I really love you. So please love me too.