Entries for August, 2014

I knew what the problem was

I tried to fight it off

But whenever I was alone

It haunted me all night long

My resolve wasn't strong enough

It pushed me hard, I stumble and fall

And the perfect time arrives..

In Your name I call..

*04.02.13. 20:47pm*


Currently feeling: contemplative
Posted by mysticmalison on August 13, 2014 at 10:11 PM | Add a Comment

I had a dream, but it felt so real.

I felt my heart throbbing as I had a glimpse of him walking my direction.

I quickly avoided when his gaze met mine.

Suddenly, I felt warm. Whose hands are these holding me tight from the back? I wondered.

I tried to get away, but it stayed there.

The warm caress of those hands and tears that wet my clothes.

I still recall.

Then I saw it was him.

Fragments of the memories and affection I once buried slowly came back.

It was as though someone rubbed salt again in my wounds.

He continued to weep without letting me go and I allowed him to.

And for the last time, I touched his familiar face and reminisced every part of it.

All the pain and hurt I then felt again.

The doubts, betrayal, and sadness reappeared.

It was too heavy to carry them all again.

Lost in the moment, I found myself crying as well.

Without words, I knew what he wanted to tell me.

And I understood every feeling  his tear meant to express.

But with every drop of my own tears, I hope he understood, too.

Everything's forgiven. Everything--even him.

It liberates us--that they call "forgiveness".

*04.3.13. 23.27pm

Currently feeling: indescribable
Posted by mysticmalison on August 13, 2014 at 10:23 PM | 2 comments
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